I was lying in bed, feeling a little under the weather. But somehow, I kept feeling like I need to "prove" to those around that I really was not well.
Then it hits me: I've had this sense for some years now.
So I start to introspect - why do I feel like I have to "give evidence" or "prove" that I'm really not well?
Then it hits me. My narc husband of 5 years always used to minimalise and undermine any illness I had. He'd say I just want attention, or that I'm not praying enough, that's why I'm sick. He never nursed me when I wasn't well, instead he'd totally ignore me. Not even offer me food after he cooks while I'm unwell.
Even now, just thinking about it is sending shivers down my spine, and makes my eyes water. The coldness was out of this world....
How can a fellow human being, one who calls himself a Christian, be so cold to someone he says he loves??? 😭😭😭😭🥶🥶🥶🥶
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